Well it's a fair question. BECAUSE I WANT ONE!@#$

In the end, it comes down to memories, and sharing.

I once had a special opportunity to read a journal of hard times that a very close and special person of my acquaintance had presented me. I wanted to read it - but being kinda totally 'anti reading' at all at the time, and not knowing or even coming close to comprehending the meaning of such a journal - a segment of their lives - I told them I'd read it later. This resulted in my hurting their feelings; something I had totally not wanted or expected...

Between the sheer lack of knowledge of such a item as a journal, and the growing fear of becoming old and never remembering anything - lol shh - I came up with the idea of getting a online journal, a blog seemingly to me at the time to be the best option and name.

Now I wish I'd gone with journal -_-

Eitherway, the FMB or Full Moon Blog serves as both personal diary and occasional tech tool and online update to the world.

As a diary of memories I treat it with great respect - now that I know it's real value, and try to keep it updated and filled with valuable and long term 'seemingly good things to remember' or so forth subjects. From things I think I might want to search out later in life about myself, to just the every day nothingness that happens that might become more valuable than gold to me in my older years to contrast by, to perhaps a tool for a future significant other to learn more about where I've came from... I value the tool I have.

Being in web design, and constantly needing to optimize and understand SEO or Search Engine Optimization, I've also littered my journal with entries on occasion for jus flat out testing. From a "Tulsa Court Reporter" test to a "I do it for the Hugs also" titled entry - I test google and the other SE's to see what they stick on, and what they don't, to further my knowledge to help my clients.

And in the end - especially tying my blog into Livejournal - I've found my journal / blog / yea serves to keep friends both near and far up to date - heh if they CHOOSE to sort through the long mess - and knowing what I'm up to. I value those that read in the end, cause I know they are really putting up with somethin heh.


Do I spill all the beans on FMB? No, no I don't ;) I've found that in the times when I need to really vent, put out my own poisonous feelings, bad thoughts, or just get things out and onto 'paper' as it were so I can think or feel like I've shared - I don't want it spread across the inTARRweb - so - I do have a hidden secret journal that comes up on occasion in talk or mutterings. Dark Side of the Moon - or DSM as I refer to it often is my darker journal, where I put my heart and soul and fears and fowls into, where even I let out things I don't let anyone know. I have shared parts and snippets with LL once or twice, but beyond that close online friend, no one has ever gazed upon the sad lil journal of mine that really gets the 'crap beat out of it'. I have had plans to put it online under lock and key, cept then Sean could get to it heh - being on his server and all... But we'll see. I think in the end I'll want to share things from it, and perhaps even open up and let people read it - but - not now heh. It'll be a cool thing though - the 2 design schemes playing off of one another - one a full moon, another a sliver or dark side... Muaha!



So that's pretty much it. No real big secrets or stories out there. I'm jus a guy, that has some reasons, to keep a journal, and remember his past. Never know when you'll need it, or get a kick going back and reading yourself; a strange and only grown stranger thing for me personally - but a real feeling of accomplishment lies with it, so - I shall continue.

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